I got a new job. It is pretty exciting. It is really difficult and I am hoping I can get the hang of everything. Right now I kind of feel like I am letting everybody down by being slow and not having the knowledge I need, but that will come with time. Right now I just have to learn as much as I can and put my best foot forward. It is a learning experience.
The whole gender thing has reached a weird level right now and I am unsure of where exactly I am. It wasn’t just a fad or a phase or anything like that. I still feel very fluid in my gender, but it is also a strange experience as I am working in a very masculine arena right now so I am having to really switch gears, but that is how it goes.
I feel happy with myself right now. And that is really huge. I feel like I can be myself around the people I love, when I need to. I feel like I can share myself with people, but certain people expect certain things and that is what I give them if I don’t feel like they are open minded. I am really able to be like a chameleon right now, able to fluidly blend in to where I need to, but still retaining who I am on the inside. That is a huge thing. I feel accepting of myself.
I hope you do too.
And I hope your world is bright.