So a friend of mine told me the other day that I have been being really sensitive lately. I understood it, I accepted it, but I wasn’t really able to explore it. I was talking with another friend at work today and they pointed out the same thing. So then I really thought about it and it made sense. I have been really sensitive lately. So it was really cool to acknowledge that. Because then I could work through it. I just started really having emotions that I felt were okay to share. I didn’t allow myself to feel much since I was thirteen when I started hardcore repressing who I am. So I never really learned emotions. At first when I started having emotions they were very confusing to me, because they were so new, but now it seems like I have just been taking them for granted and letting them run wild. This is not a good thing. It is kind of like the exact opposite of not having any emotions at all. So I need to work on that. I need to take a deep breath when something bothers me and take the time to explore it before I actually voice my opinion on it. Sometimes the things that upset me are probably little things to which I am over reacting too. I realize now how exhausting that must be to deal with. So I am really sorry about that! But the good thing is that now I can focus on this and I can work to make it better. Hopefully this will improve how I feel and also make it easier for other people to be around me. I hope it does. One of the great things and infuriating things of life is that it never stops. The growing and learning and trying, I mean. So I feel really happy right now. This was a good realization. I can do this! I can make myself a better person. I can control my emotions and not have to voice each one. I will let the ones go that are little things that I overreact to, but vocalize the really important ones. Because my feelings do matter, right? I think so! Wow. This is like a whole new realization! And it is something manageable that I can work on and get better at! So yeah, I’m pretty stoked. I think this weekend I will make a Noely vision board so I have something to look at that is a visualization of my different aspects and my goals. I think this is a big step! And it’s one that I’m not afraid to take!