But it’s not all bad being gender queer or trans or whatever I am defining myself as.
Well, that’s confusing. It’s not at all bad being me!
Sometimes things are confusing. Sometimes I don’t know who I am or what I should be doing. Sometimes pronouns upset me. Sometimes seeing Mr. on a letter really screws me up, yeah, that happened for the first time yesterday and that was really strange. It just really bothered me.
But in general I am much happier now because I am at least trying to be myself. I am trying to discover what exactly that means. Male? Female? I don’t know. Heterosexual? I’m not even sure what that means anymore. Do I want to have sex with women? Yes. Do I want to do it in a heteronormative or a heterosexual way? Not so much…
But this journey is beautiful. I am more in touch with my emotions. I feel more of everything, sometimes that means sadness, but it most of the time it means more happiness.
So it’s good stuff.
I love being me.
I just hope when I am ready to show who I am that everyone will be accepting.
Thanks for following me on my beautiful journey!